(Disclaimer: I'm posting from work. It's my lunch break. Sue me.)
So I decided on Saturday, after a disappointing session of EQ2, that I needed to take a break from the game. I had already decided that I needed a break from SCA things... though admittedly, probably a brief one.
My break consisted of digging up the rock-filled soil in my back yard and sieving it in a cheap knockoff double-wide milk crate, laying a dry brick pedestal for our rain barrel, and shoveling up the decomposing maple buds alongside my garage. That and reading some of Iasmin's copy of 'Charlemagne's Tablecloth," playing with Leelu, and finding a new air filter for the furnace/AC in hopes of getting it working again.
I often think, during such times, about a scene from the denouement of "The Return of the King," when Frodo talks about trying to return to his old life - his normal life - upon returning home from the War of the Ring. I wonder about what value and meaning life holds in the absence of such an all-encompassing task; sometimes, I wonder about what meaning life could have if that were its entire scope. I suppose it's fodder for some more reading. Ultimately, I don't think I could find any intellectual or emotional satisfaction in
nihilism.
Sometimes, I think I would've been a lot happier with a 110 IQ.